a friend told me that she intuitively feels the end of my time, as if it is coming very soon. my death will be sudden and i will remain young eternally, it will happen sometime this week, or a month. perhaps she said it jokingly, well, i laughed, and a scenario appeared in my head that moment. 

i get stolen for human trafficking and disappear for approximately 6 months, Radiohead is playing in the background im all traumatized of course, 

im not here

im not here

im not here 

and obviously im not, i got stolen. my inner dori got kicked out violently by other people wanting something from me they cannot have. there was a scene where i am in the car and i am so very sad etc and Pink Floyd starts playing, the great gig in the sky, and i kick the window open with my bare foot and it starts bleeding, im all covered in blood and glass, i run out. we are in some sort of a designated forest, and when the song gets to the aaaAAAAOAOAOAO i run in slow motion into the forest and suddenly it gets so magical, out of nowhere. the trees start look like cathedral domes, the branches look like human-made wooden ornaments but better, because it’s made by nature. everything looks exactly the way it’s supposed to, i thought to myself, maybe the earth would look this way if we were not here. Radiohead – treefingers. everything is shiny and divine, but i’m still bloody and depressed, i walk around and wonder to myself, “where the fuck am i”. then there is a shot of my bare bloody feet standing on top of a perfectly cut green grass, just like in a microsoft field but better. the blood drips upon the leaves but does not paint it red. the nature remains truthful to itself, regardless of my liquid pain. i look up and the sun is shaped like a donut, it goes around me like a safety net and hugs me with its’ warmth. im like “oh wow oh my Adam Kadmkn i am being hugged by the sun, this is a miracle, perhaps the world still loves me and i didn’t fall out of God’s eye. maybe he still cares.” the sun is wearing sunglasses like any sun emoji would, agreeing feelingly to my thoughts and whispering “ye ye ye”, into my bloody ear. all of a sudden the light fades away and absorbs all my blood and swollen memories away, the color radiates towards rose red for a split second, then goes back to a complete disappearence. it leaves me enigmatically, by taking away my blood, pain, and memories of recent events. i am clean. 

i walk back home, perhaps it planted a seed into my mind with a navigation code, because i knew exactly where to go. i lay in my bed and i look at my fingers. i see a small shard of blood, barely even a cut, the sun washed me off completely like a blanket but still left an accidental mark. since i dont remember anything i dont think much of it. 

“hm, where did that papercut come from?”