i felt an allusion to shame – but not the thing itself – my fingers are sticky and crispy from the chicken nuggets – rushed – what does it mean to be a publisher – my arms feel exceedingly long – some visitor from penguin publishing – i dont have anything interesting to say – or ask – or say – or ask – or both – mostly neither – i need to buy some cigarettes – the grasping – this grasping that tried to find its purchase by eroding yours – leftover fries – i am feeling bored – simultaneously i am missing out on it – in this loss called life – bye